CrAzYlAdY :p

Okay, been three months and I am scared to even mention my weight… so I won’t. What I will say is this… it’s the hardest thing in the world to stabilize your weight after a dramatic loss… and I failed horrendously. I started this new virtual networking and gaming site called secondlife and I feel as though I have been cheating on buddyslim. lol… but all jokes aside… I really have been bad. Bad bad bad!!!

I went to Target last night and saw bathing suits on the racks, it’s thirty something degrees out!!! And they are displaying bathing suits?!?! Well, it was my wake up call… big big wake up call. I’ve been slacking off really bad. I never stuck to my resolution to go 100% vegan either. I havent back tracked on my no eating red meat but I still eat chicken!

**thinks of any other confessions**                                                                                        

Uhm, I havent worked out, and I mean not a single crunch(not one!) in like 2 month’s… I feel horrible and lazy and need to get my fat ass up and moving(sorry bout the language).

I have yet to find a job but am in the process of going back to college for Fall of 2009 so yay to that…

I’m terrified to be the “girl who gained it all back in a few months” but I have, and my true fear is of having others see my down fall as well…

I think I’m back again, I broke up with secondlife lol… I cant stand the way I look in the morror anymore. I used to be so confident. Now I’m so sad.

My dog had 9 puppis in December so thats another thing I’ve been going crazy with… I’m down to two now. Very emotionally distructive.

I need help guys, I cant stay on because I’ve got a busy day ahead of me but I can only hope that all my besties are still on here to give me the warm and helpful advise they used to give me. I never felt so supported as I did when I was on here everynight… Just sharing my thoughts. I miss you guys so much…

***Huggs***