Ms.Weightloss

Why the hell it means so much to me. I feel good today. No binges. Not even a snack. I ate three whole filling meals. I could have had a snack, but tested myself. I didn’t care, I was fine. I woke up and looked at my notes left to myself on the kitchen fridge… I thought differently. I thought myself better. I feel so good right now. I think I am finally back on track.

I think, therefore I am. One of the most famous qoutes there is. Why? Well, prime example.  This morning when I woke up, I thought. I didn’t eat yet, I just drank a cup of coffee and thought. No T.V., just silence. I thought my day through. Then I thought of all the reasons why I began to lose weight in the first place. Then it hit me. I thought her back. The girl I was last month. The one who wanted this so bad. Yes, I am back.. I feel it in me.

Thinking back on yesterday, I cannot see what caused me to do what I was doing to myself. Boredom? No, It was losing myself. Yes, I knew what I wanted long term, but I couldn’t touch base with that due to the fact that I was letting my other issues interfere. I wasn’t paying attention to what my body was feeling. I was numb.

New Rules;

No eatting after 7pm, If I’m hungry, go to sleep!!!

No eatting while on the computer!!!

Tomorrow is a new day… One day at a time!!!

I WILL NOT binge tomorrow, I WILL THINK before I eat!!! I WILL NOT lose myself. I WILL be fully aware of my every actions and feelings. I Will put my body first, because with out a good running body and mind, I will get nowhere.